Testing...Testing 123

So this week I am being tested in more ways then 1. I am being tested with food temptations and unfortunately they got the best of me. We went out to eat way too much this past week. I went back to my "we deserve it" mentality. UGH! Really?
Last week was hard and one of the things that my husband remembered it that it was one year ago I found out I was pregnant for the first time. So hard to remember that. And here we are this week finding out test results from the fertility testing I am doing.
We went to the Dr. on Monday to get the results to all the blood they took out of me. The good news is it all came back normal. The bad news is that means more testing. They took more blood out of me (only 2 vials instead of the 12 from before), I have to have a 3 hr glucose test done on Sept. 13, and I will most like have to have an endometrial biopsy done where they biopsy my uterus. I may not be producing enough hormones to support a pregnancy and this will help determine if that may be the case. On top of all that I need to take my basal temp every day for who knows how long. I have to record the temp and everything else personal that goes along with it. (if you really want to know you can go to fertilityfriend.com and look it up.)
Anyways, back to my reality of my weight. I gained a half a pound this week. I am both proud of my self and of course dissapointed in my self. I ate way too much but I did walk A LOT! I have been greatful to have some parents in a playgroup I am in my the little boy I take care of come on walks with me last week. I really appreciate everyones support!
Next week is my birthday week (Aug 23) and I will be taking a much needed vacation with my hubby! We havent been away alone since our honeymoon and it is much needed. A friend from church is letting us stay in her house in Maine. I am so thankful for this blessing as well. If she wasn't able to let us stay then this vacation wouldn't be happening with Bobby's layoff. The great thing is we can go grocery shopping and be in very much control of our food intake. My goal is for this to be the first vacation I come back weighing less then when I got there. We will be going for lots of nice walks and exercise together. I can't wait! I am not sure if I will have internet connection or not so most likely there will be no blog post next week unless there is. But when I get back I hope to have a positive blog post with pictures of our getaway!

Need to step it up

Hey Everyone!
Sorry I haven't posted in a couple of weeks. It has been crazy at moments and not so much at times. With my weigh in 2 weeks ago I gained a pound and this past Monday I lost that pound. I definitely lost some motivation but feel it coming back again. My birthday is coming up (Aug 23rd) and my new short term goal is to be under 300lbs by then. So that means I have to lose 5 lbs in these next 2 weeks. (I am currently 304lbs). Very doable if I step it up.
I have a couple obstacles these past two weeks and I am proud that I havent raided an ice cream shop or a convenient store. My husband just recently got laid off. We knew that his company was having lay offs but we really didn't think he would be one of them. Well...he was. So now we have this obstacle to get over. He still is really passionate about becoming a fire fighter and I hope that dream comes true for him, but for now he will need something in the meantime.
I also started seeing a fertility specialist to see why I keep miscarrying. I had 12 vials of blood taken out of me during my first appointment along with a full physical and and hour of going over my history. Last Friday I had an Hysterosalpingogram (HSG). It is a procedure in which dye is injected into my cervix to check for any abnormalities. Praise God that all came back normal for that. I go back Monday for follow up and get my blood test results back.
So all of this has messed with my emotions. I was worried during the HSG that they would find scarring. I was told there could be because of the sexual abuse from my early childhood. I am so happy to say there was none. I don't know what I would have done if I found out there was and that was the cause of the miscarriages. But I thank God that it wasn't.
Bobby also went away last Thursday on a camping trip and came back yesterday. I don't like when he is away that long. I missed him so much but am glad he is back!
So anyways, time to step it up!!