Doing more damage to ourselves...

So I am not sure if this will be empowering or humiliating but I keep feeling I have to share so here goes... There are so many things that people who are over weight and self conscious, or people who are just self conscious in any form think in their own heads. I know there are times when I am walking in or leaving a room, driving down the street, or basically doing anything where i think negative thoughts about myself. Yes, i had a lot of negative influences growing up and reasons why i am the way I am, but ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!! It will be a process and it will be hard but its gotta stop and I challenge you to stop too! For Example, some of the things I think in my head when I walk into a room are: "these people must be thinking who is that fat girl walking in" or "she is so big", and even if I know the people and are friends with them I can think "why am I friends with a big girl". While walking out of a room I think EVERYONE is talking about me. Usually in a negative way. It is hard to overcome things from when you were younger. Even if they are talking about you. So what??! Not my problem! Even if I dont hear it, God hears it. They are the ones being judged in that moment not me! One of the things I do while I am driving down the road is: Whenever a car is going to pass me I tend to raise my left hand with my wedding rings on it as if to say "I am married. Yes someone would marry me". Isnt that horrible. But its the truth. Even though other people did damage to our self esteem when we were younger, we continue doing more damage to ourselves. There are so many more negative thoughts that run through my head on a daily basis and with God's help I will get those out of my head and replace them with the things that God says about me. God made us who we are for a reason and He loves us for who we are NO MATTER WHAT!! And that is all that matters. I am going to post this quote from someone I know that just happened to put it as her status the day I wanted to post this. So here it is. "Who am I? I am strong, beautiful, loved, whole, gifted, wise, rescued, forgiven, powerful, sound-minded and wonderfully created. I AM a daughter of the HIGHEST KING. Not because I think I am, but because HE thinks I am . I AM" -Ashley King So while I am challenging myself and working on myself, I challenge you to see yourself for you God sees you as. And stop doing more damage to ourselves than others have done to us.

Our own Biggest Loser Competition

Hey Everyone, Sorry for my very overdue post. Life is well....life. Such a crazy busy life but such a blessing! I had enjoyed my summer working and doing some fun summer activities. I was still very conscious of making myself healthy and have been continuing to make better choices. I ended up maintaining my weight over the summer. I didnt lose but i didnt gain either! A first for me! But as the end of the summer was approaching I wanted to get back into my life changing body renovation again but something was stopping me. I prayed and asked God to light a fire under me to get me going again. Later in that day I got to meet my new baby girl charge (little girl i nanny for) and was very envious of someone else having a baby. Then my brother mentioned a weight loss contest his company is participating in and the top team wins $10,000!!!! Talk about lighting a fire! So, we just started that competition last thursday and it goes until December 9th. Two of my brothers, my husband, my brothers girlfriend and myself are on the team. We are working out and eating nice healthy dinners together. It has been great not only for our health but for our family relationships. I was reminded from a friend that I can have all the motivation in the world but I wont have success unless I do this for me. I took that and decided I am doing this for me!! I NEED to do this for me!! So anyways, I will keep you posted on my progress through this competion. Thank you again for all your support through this.